just another fairy tale

state one thing to describe me :)

2011-02-18T21:00:00.001-08:00

state one thing to describe me :)

Answer here

2010-08-18T06:24:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 3 MONTHSARY , babies!

Hani , you were the first whom the nurse showed me .

& i notice , how cute & small you were .

same goes to Nina , i love you . I love both of you .

the moment i heard your cries , i knew .

i did the right thing .

i know i may be not the best mother in the world ,

but ill do my best i can .

Now , after 3 months you guys started to react to the surroundings .

you guys were so CUTE . mcm mummy -. heh

cepat cepat la besar , senang mummy nk bwk nina&hani kluar .

oklah till here . once again I LOVE YOU .

love , your mummy :)

2010-08-14T09:47:00.000-07:00

ok aku hilang mood sgt sgt .

mood nk mkn pon hilang uh bebual ngn kau .

babi tol . ape sia problem kau ?

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

ps:disini saye ingin mengucapkan selamat hari jadi kpd nonet tersygggg!!!

2010-08-13T06:06:00.001-07:00

its friday the 13th !!

aiyoooooooooooo,someone's gonna die ^^

okay done .

makin hari makin irritating plak kau .

ish , da lah aku rimas uhc .

shafe'i.(hehs btol tk spelling '?)

geranmyer aku ngn kauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu .

ok cut , tadi g poly antar hani for an injection tapi the nurse canceled pasal hani got minor flu :(

&& the doc says if the flu comes with coughing plus fever must immidiately go hospital coz hani is a prematured baby senang dpt symptoms and virus .

tsk tsk . alala mummy sayang hani kay tkmo sick sick kay .

*uwek wek .

semalam gy bazaar geylang just checking around jerrr .

tk bnyk kedai bukak dan blom ramai orang .

hahs

ps: blood saye sungguh cute post pasal saye <3

kental yek

2010-08-12T09:26:00.000-07:00

hello kreatures .

let me share with u something .

theres this macam paham convo which made me laugh out loud .

bullshit sia this boy .

so here it goes ;

after so much talking this part made me laughu

fazly (adik faizal shah ) : woi pantat! aku tanye ko,ko nk main2kn abang aku pe ?ckit hari aku nampak ko ngn jntan lain , nasib baik aku tgh mabuk lau tak da lame aku pecahkn muke kau , pantat kau abg aku sanggup tak alik rumah maki mak aku,patah alik keje kapal,atlast blakang dia kau main gila..nnti ape ? kau mengandung lagi abg aku kena tanggung kau lagi ah kau ingat tau fara.. aku dgn budak2 aku tgh carik mimi .. jangan sampai carik kau pulak !

hahahahaha , this is the confession of org mcm paham .

he didnt even know what happened between me and his brother .

lagi pon kau sadar la diri kau sikit . masih umor adikadik siol .

ramai2 blh uh kau brani cube kau sorang ?! kental yek .

ni kau ckp kau gangster ? merepek sia kau .

and fyi , selame ni abg kau tanggung ape ?

cube cerite kat aku . mase aku kt hospital aku ke die yg supply duit .

eh sudah lah aku pon tk nk ungkit kan .

bilang abg kau aku nk barang2 aku dan duit aku yg die pinjam tu .

da baik aku tk report polis .

mmg satu family kau mcm sial uh .

ish puase puase buat org marah pulak .

2010-08-10T22:10:00.000-07:00

okay so much of pictures talkings , now its the other way round .

last weekend i went to ubin (its PKIM thingy).

yes , celestial resort .

it was beautiful !

the first thing i was at changi jetty , i thought things wont be as i expected .

but it turns out to be WORTHLESS .

yes , its so boring . sume bdk2 kecik ngn pakcik makcik je .

WTH~ . tkde gang sia .

mendak gile ! sampi je bilik da mls nk kluar .

whats the point ? urgh~

malamnye BBQ + campfire .

yes i did join . hehe sape tk nk mkn ?

tapi , one thing i hate the most is , NYAMOK !!!

bnyk siol . habis kaki i ade dot dot . eeeeeeee

tu da tk pe . balik bilik je nmpk soldiers line up .

semot la tu . bnyk !! gigit gigit plak tu . ish macam jatoh ditimpa tangge gitu .

spend an hour killing it . humans won ! tapi penat sey .

ok da mls nk story telling panjang2 .

on monday 09082010 .

NATIONAL DAY!

haha went out with sabby , hannan & peot .

well, peot bnyk complain la ! panas la ape la .

ish sape suro pakai baju mcm tu ! >_<

tapi overall i had a not so great night actually . but having them around was fun .

fyi , for me seeing fireworks under the dark sky was so damn romantic ! hehe .

today is also the day for all muslims utk berpuase :)

puaselah kawan kawan ku .

raye nk dkt , tk dpt duit raye padan muke . hehs

2010-08-10T07:41:00.000-07:00

im super duper lazy to update lahhhhhhhh

let the pictures do the talking alright ?

2010-08-06T07:41:00.000-07:00

$12

$10

to the ladies out there . anything that catch your eyes .

im selling it at half price !!! yes yes . more to upload .

ok back to my story ,

fyi im going to pulau ubin for a so called holiday .

2 day 1 night thingy . cant wait !!

ill update as soon as i reach home okay ?

now i got some things to do .

so , nites

2010-08-05T08:30:00.000-07:00

hello kreatures .

today i had a mini shopping spree at $1 shop :p

hahaha . bought many many things .

ok i sound so BORING -.

hmm , nina & hani wont stop puke-ing right after they finish their bottlling.

worry me much . but yeah i did ask the doctor but the answer was NORMAL .

whatever la ehhh . gy bomoh lagi bagos ! ish , da start merepek uh aku ni .

ouh well , lets sum things up !

basically , its another day of boredom . thnk you & gd bye

2010-08-04T08:22:00.000-07:00

hey earthlinks :)

well step dad confronted me .

& as i expected

IT DOESNT MAKE ANY DIFFERENCE.

everyone seems to have diff opinion .

they SVCKS

was suppose to meet mirabell&rara&sasha just now .

but yeah,twinies was sick.

sorry guys :p next time ok ?

sasha, you'll become a mother soon , da blh celebrate mothers day .

hehs , trust me your world are changing .

ok thts it . nothing interesting at home today

bye

2010-08-02T22:05:00.000-07:00

why is it always YOU i have to listen to ?

you always expect me to be someone who im not .

you dont even accept the way i am nor my children .

you've been telling your friends theyre yours and not mine .

the reason ? MALU -.

and do you know how hurtful it is ?

what a great performance !

i hate you , now . but i dont know tomorrow .

you treat me like a doll but no one will understand .

you lock me inside the house and prevent me from seeing my friends .

you know how humiliating it was ?

im 17 with 2 children & still this treatment i get .

what are you ?

when i ask why all the reason you say was

"youre not mature enough"

"theres too many influences out there,& i dont want the same thing happened again"

"you dont even know how to manage the house&time for your children"

"i & your father are the ones who spending for you and your babies "

"because of your friends you became like this"

&& yes this is VERY VERY HUMILIATING .

im pissed with every single word you said .

i hate you , hate you for controlling my life.

i felt like running away but who can i turn to ?

step father will always putting the blame on me if you shows attitude towards the whole family.

im really really DEPRESSED or should i say

EMOTIONAL DEPRESSED?

every problem i had will never ends .

i hate me life . but i guess ill have to wait .

im sorry earthlinks . i really do . but i cant do anything .

everythings just seems like killing me softly & slowly .

we will see what will happen in few yrs from now . maybe 1 or 2 ?

to new friends why bother making friends with me ? stop wasting your time .

im not gonna entertain you . atleast for now :(

ps: i think ill learn to be uncheerful -.

ni peot , my sayang .

my listening ear , my loverboy .

hahs~

mom,i hate you.

2010-08-02T06:26:00.000-07:00

hello kreatures :)

just got back from malaysia yesterday .

supposingly need to attend sis's wedding.

but something else happened .

shit .

i didnt even have time to go shopping etc .

im meeting rara&mira&___ (forget who) &more on wednesday .

teehheee~ nk keje nk keje .

MMMM

nothing to post much .

so yeah ,bye kreatures.

ps: wan monkey always stalk my blog .

2010-07-29T21:47:00.000-07:00

hello kreatures , heh ~

well simply this is just another post of mine .

yesterday , i had a minor implant surgery on my left arm .

so , yeah . feeling abit pricky now .

tomorrow will be going malaysia by public transport .

yerr public transport .

tk boleh imagine sey with babies lagi . tsk tsk .

but we have to go as it was my sister's wedding .

hfft ~ bile i nye turn ? cheyy fake .

its raining the whole morning& had a good sleep

until the babies cry for milk . aiyerrr

ok la , otakku blank la actually .

nnti bile-bile free update lagi kay .

bye kreatures

sick-o

2010-07-28T04:23:00.000-07:00

im sick , having flu for the past few days .

well, as u can see its been quite some time ive been not posting some news.

so here i am .

where shall i start ?

firstly im not with the fucker anymore .

so i already got rid of him.

really , he's just good for nothing.

if u happen to know MUHAMMAD FAIZAL SHAH BIN AZMAN ,

RUN !

ok next ,

lifes been hard for me .

i do miss my school times etc .

but now ?

NOW , I REALLY HAVE TO KICK MY BUTT OFF TAKING CARE OF THE TWINIES.

its not like its a troubled , i know theyre my responsiblities since their father didnt regard them as his . i have to carry all the **** alone .

let the pictures do the talking :)

2010-05-28T00:30:00.001-07:00

finally ,new arrivals in my life !

18052010

2010-02-28T21:29:00.000-08:00

where are you? i miss you .

why?why do you have to go?

i'd give my all to have just one more night with you .

i risk my life to feel your body next to me

cause i cant go on living in this memory of us all.

baby can you feel me

imagine im looking in your eyes ,i can see u clearly

vividly emblazoned in my mindand yet you're so far like distance star

im wishing on tonight.

2010-02-28T20:59:00.000-08:00

" god, please protect us from all kinds of evil"

2010-02-22T22:17:00.000-08:00

its been months since ive been gone and finally had the time to update you .
ouh well , life been challenging for me these days .
full of ups and downs .
but wait ! dont get me wrong !! im happy , happy with whatever i had now .
see , im growing FATS ! haha -.
these few months really taught me so much about LIFE .
ive started to manage on work and money . without this 2 , i wont live !
in fact ill die of hunger and experience . as u know , im MOMMY'S girl . xp
okay cut the crap , and as u know im not schooling anymore . its not that im not interested ,
but i really can't . !! i miss my family and friends . BUT ! not even one helped me when im in hardship . yes , this is what ive learnt . even family werent there when im in hardship .
so , by this i prefer to be on my own . TO BE ON MY OWN FEET .
but im not alone . ive got company , a SPECIAL one . someone who have been there and make me realised on whats life . all the scoldings were all facts . im dumb , but he made me think .
nothing is free in singapore . they are really making lots of money . haha
so , to anyone reading my post , please realise that u are getting older ! there are so much more you have to learn other than studies in school . ok till here , good bye :))

2009-11-20T07:44:00.000-08:00

hey people ,
ive got my results today .
well, it really shocked me . so unexpected .
after spending 2 yrs in sec 3 , finally im promoted ! haaha .
i really hurry my way home to tell mama . i was excited .
but , it turn out to be a hurtful moment . she dun even give me a smile !
i was sad , real down uhc . at least when i told my step dad hes like 'ohh , baguslah that means u really have ti continue your studies since u got promoted ' . im glad by that .
but mama ? i dont know what to say . HEARTLESS .
hmm , isz will be working on sea again this 23rd instead of 25th . im so gonna miss him .
whyy ohh whyy . first big man , now ? pray hard nothing bad happen during his journey . :))

2009-11-19T06:29:00.000-08:00

its been days since i last posted one , here it goes .
today is the second day of resting from 3 days of tonning .
ohhmmyy~ but at least we didnt spend our time over nothing
like those other teenagers . sungguh no life .
sunday - east coast .
monday - a day of peace
tuesday - slacking at yona's crib .
& yes , have u heard of this boy tenggelam at east coast ?
i think i saw him . isk isk ~ such a pity .
that night , there this chinese people throw ashes of dead people into the sea !
i told u its haunted already ! haah.
today - kkh - chongpang - pasar
&& guess what ?! i PUKE! yes yes ,its been ages since i last visited the market ..
the smell just ,, EWWWWWWWW

2009-11-11T07:26:00.000-08:00

see our busok facesss ..

farah ft . fiooonnaahhh
faizal shah azman dohh .

hello hello .
did tonning at east coast park yesterday .
and here i am now doing some blogging .
hmm, fiona's butt getting bigger !! HAHA .
den met this abang of hers which i dont really know when she had a brother !
shocking indeed , well only one shocking part of him im fond of .
his way of lecturing is as same as big man's .
he make me miss this big man so much .
ouhh well . im done for today :)

2009-11-09T07:07:00.000-08:00

my cutest son ever ; muhammad danish aniq

ibunya siihhh

VIVOCITY

2009-11-08T09:18:00.000-08:00

me & my YMs .
ft NABEYLARH

inside the bus ..

went to a charity show stated above today with pertapis peeps .

soo .. yeah im wearing TUDUNG . do i look nicee??? HAH

ok im tired , update again tmrw !

2009-11-07T03:05:00.000-08:00

" i miss you , big man "

each day ill be waiting of when we will be seeing each other again .

although we are not together anymore but the memories still lingers around me .

my tears become the victim of all my sorrow & happiness .

i miss you , i need you , i want you back with me .

mum & dad been quarelling over and over again .

they decided for a DIVORCE !!

yes yes , FCUK .

ps : life's been bored nowadays .

2009-11-06T07:32:00.001-08:00

" its not working out . "

i cant do this any longer .

i just feel somethings not right .

maybe im not the one for you .

i still love someone else so deeply .

just lets go on our separate ways .

im better off alone till hes bck , ill be always waiting

2009-11-04T19:58:00.001-08:00

"give me a chance "

well , im speechless .

someone so unexpected just said that to me .

i dont know if i can give full commitment

as my heart still had someone else and i know it wont fades away .

im doomed .

ohh well , i thought today was 12thNOVEMBER2009!

seriously ! haha , funny sia .

ok till here , i dun want to get anymore emotional distress issue .

2009-11-03T03:21:00.000-08:00

" meh sini meh "

helllooooooo ...

its nothing much to update today .

fugging BORED , planned to meet my beautys but due to my laziness i cancelled em ' . sorry guys . ohh yar , had extra class going on just now . boring ~ . ok till here for today .

sometimes i feel that this feeling will never fades .

tried to forget him for abit but i cnt .

the memories simply comes back haunting me .

off all the effort & sacrifices he made for me .

i miss being with you ,

your hugs ,

your kisses ,

your love ,

your care & concern for me ,

your never ending advises ,

& lots more .

i miss you , dont you ??

im will be waiting till you're fine with ur surroundings .

i know by now , ure busy working but dun till affect ur own health ,bcoz i care .

you'll be enlisted in ns soon .. another months of waiting .

always remember , you're special for me unlike those others .

by god's will like you say , we will be back together again :)

i believe u can pull me through far away from the darkness of my life .

theres lots of things you should know , but i didnt want to trouble you like adding more problems into your life . let me take the risk .

nothing interesting happened today . buh-bye :)

2009-11-01T06:14:00.000-08:00

the girls [i was like terselit kat tepi siaa]

me , aida & iqah
& went with these 3 boys [exclude the while long sleeved shirt]

as you can see the new faces above ,

they are my 'secret friends which i was revealing now . HEHE

they are super duper gorgeous but our outing ysterday was bored .

i & anip [ which ppl tot were my bf ,] went of to far east and have our early dinner .

by then it was raining heavilyy , then ,we had to run like crazy chickens just to get to the train station as we change our destination to bugis instead .

funny moment . theres more story but im not sure how to elaborate more .

so today , i had receive this job offer :)

RETAIL , BEAUTICIAN , CEDELE

which was all located at town area .

so , gonna be busy .

ohh yar , im what im working on is based on charity offer .

so the deal is , 10% of my pay will be put aside for newbies :)

all this thanks to a group called 'the beautiful people'.

oklarh as long im making money while donating some of it , im happy .

goodbye , friend .

2009-10-29T02:03:00.000-07:00

im losing a friend today .
well its for the better . ily , friend .
thanks for all the time we shared together .
loving every moment of it even though sometimes u really pissed me off .
may god bless you . ok readers , my friend aint dying or what .
we are just a perfect stranger now . although i know ill miss him .
i know i have to do this .

after school , slack at fiza bby crib .
love her to the fullest .
ok till here for now . :)

2009-10-28T09:22:00.000-07:00

guess what , i got another chance of retaining again .
how i know ? well supposely i didnt turn up for school today .
but fiza called me around 9 in the morning saying that i had to report to school as the principle wanted to see us !! yes yes , the regulars . but it turn up to be a meeting for upcoming retainee as the school is giving us 2nd chance . we had to turn up for extended revision which last for 2 weeks ! that means , IM SUFFERING !! im not sure i cn make it , and i feel really helpless !!
8am to 5 pm , is it possible to study in such a long hour?!! its worst than normal school time !!
DISASTER sey for me . coz ive shut down my learning system soon after my last paper .
hmm , 2 weeks ehyy ... ill try my best la .. AMIN

slack at pho chan's with the regulars for awhile .
hmm , david finally got a girlfriend .. haha , good good .. finally :)
love her to the fullest kay david .

i really feel down when i think about my problem .
i did it , so i really need to solve it on my own or ill be in deep trouble . fuck
im having a flu now . yeah , sudden . the weather seems bad nowadays . :(
ok till here , buh-bye ...

Bills bills bills

2009-10-27T01:36:00.000-07:00

firstly , im pissed .
cant the centre make my life happier?
ok here the story goes .
back when i was stuck in the centre , i was sick .
this nurse called asiah , took me to KKH .
yeah i just cnt get the stools out of me .
i know it may sounds disgusting coz the centre's food was horrible !!
ok continue on , i was placed in this room full of sick patients
not 5 but i think its like 20+ of them! i was put there for like less than a day .
they gave me medicine n ohh it works ! pain relief .
soon , a month later or so , a letter came by my house saying that i had to pay for the bills .
it didnt bother me as it was the centre responsiblity ! so yeah i continued on with my days
and i had received a letter from PINNACLE CREDIT SERVICES PTE LTD .
the same letter ,same content .i gave the letter to the centre and i ask bout it a few days later .
guess what , they say "everything settled " .
& yet i received the latest letter last saturday [i think]
& finally the centre really work this out . they fax everything plus the mfec card [a card full subsidised by mcys , i was told ] . but then they call me again saying it was rejected and wanted me to seek help from medical social sevices , wth . tolak balak sia .
dad was really angry . they should have told us earlier as dad's financial was not stable now due to his accident & lil brother hospital bills . haish . am i making the explaination long ? i seems so , & i know my english sucks . ok im bored .
yeah , yeah , yeah , yeah ..
i got tembel on my right eye . PAIN TAU~ !!
ohyar , finally i went to school today . Had I&E day [it was bored] . had to follow teachers rounding school n see n try out the things at the booth . it was fucking bored . but when recess is over i cabut for awhile doing manicure . HEH . i got scolding when AMBI found me . luckily i wasnt alone , Eliza was there too . same incident happen when i had done all the stations and went to the toilet , as soon as i went out , i saw none of my group members ! so i thought they had been realeased so i hurry my way up wanting to do the pedicure . but i saw them Q-ing at the parade sq , so i hurry down again . Eliza told me, AMBI complain to MRS indra bout my dissapearance throughout the day . i was pissed . thank you , im done with my post . GOODBYE :)

2009-10-25T08:02:00.000-07:00

candid-ly done . see the hunch! fugllyyness!
as the picture says ; S . M . I . L . E
what ever happens , things just have to move on .
i broke up with an this fugly early morning .
yeah , over the same issues again .
i cant afford to cry again & again . it really hurts me when the matter rose up .
so i just have to let it go . &yeah so he says;
"farah ,im not leaving you
im just leaving you for you to grow and experience life of ur own
i dun want to be someone who would stop you from experiencing life when the opportunity rises" . isnt it the same?no matter wht hes still there for me . ohh well , im just lazy to update anymore stories coz i know it will happen all over again .

GF , i miss you . come back soon . stop running .

ohh yar went to west coast park today .
tiring indeed ! ok , ill promise ill update soon .

get well soon ,brother .

2009-10-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

i spend my whole day taking after cha in the hospital .

cha had lungs infection & dirty blood .

he had these DRIPS attached .kesiannyer ....

other than that , i was so bored that i took my own pic too . heh

will be meeting bf tmrw!! yeeaayy .

&finally this bigman finally gg to ns this 11thdec2009.!!!!

yeah,hes 19 now. i know-.

cnt wait till tmrw . :)

2009-10-18T10:23:00.000-07:00

firstly , chat with this fugly nonet of mine .

nak step cute jerr .

ouh yar , i was rotting at home today .
so i did a few shots above .
i miss my big man .

cha went to the hospital this morning
due to HIGH fever .
i was such a pity to see a little boy in pain .
i really feel like crying whenever he cried .
hmm, get well soon my little brother .

and ohh , mum been crazyy of buying these zulian jewelleries this afternoon.
she spend about $200 just on that thing .

so , me & gemok went off to our way .
gemok wanted to buy a bag which was now commonly used .
& i , bought a pair of purplish everlast shoe !
well , it was supposed to be grey ,but then theres no size of mine! :(

ok till here , im tired .
i miss my girldfriend too .

2009-10-14T20:25:00.000-07:00

i dont need you anymore .

honestly , you ill-treat me .

i think youre better off with another people .

losing you does not make any different .

what a kind of friend i had ! duh .

webby with fiza & syaa .beautiful fuckers - .
theyre desperately for a KISS .

ps ; sunnguh tk betol .

met boyfriend today!
like fianally !! yeeaaaayyy!!!
& i met olive . its super cute . haha .
bby , ilysm . okeh ?

2009-10-14T07:53:00.000-07:00

frankly , i broke big man's trust .
trust of being good . im sorry for that .
we almost broke off because of the post .
and he scolded me for hiding things from him .
well , i thought by not telling he wont be mad like now .
he wont nag for nothing , its because he cared and dun want me to
become like one of those unwanted pest .
they will just die of the things the thought like 'SYURGA' . stupid .

i know for all this while, im just wasting my time .
the lepakings and stuffs . its like 'come on, kau mcm tkde life je '
HAHA-. but thats how i really feel .
but i did that coz i want to waste time .
being at home was such a bore . SWEAR .
like BABI , all i do was sleep , eat , lappy-ing ,and do abit of housechores . :P
and i do thanks the regulars for being there for me .
i realise now , mixing ard with them doesnt mean u must be one of them .
you can be close but know ur limits . have principles in life .
its not that im critisizing the regulars , just that i have to think whats best for me n my future .
i know im abit slow in the brain as i find it so hard to catch up with my studies .
i need guide . so , i was hoping that the regulars will think what they want to be in the future .
i really want them to be someone in life . ily guys no matter what .

dearest boyfriend ,
im sorry .
i cnt deny that ive been bad and i really made u mad at me .
i know u want the best n only the best out of me .
u want me to become someone useful .
i understand everybit of what ure trying to say .
i need you . always . but i know i cnt depend on you too much .
ilysm ,

2009-10-13T03:27:00.000-07:00

lemme do a little of self reflection .
you are so cheap!
how could you that behind of his back?!
you once told me you need love ,
but he gave you his trust although that he wasnt there .
you love him but as the same time you need lust .
but , he wasnt there .
so you yearn for love from your friends .
but what did you get ?
what happen in the end?
just look at your friendship ..
now? look at the sins youve done these days ,think .
well , you have to learn to be harsh . not to let people do what ever they like to you .
but i know , you cant . but persevere on . you can do it !

my busy days

2009-10-12T06:11:00.000-07:00

hello hello .
i've been busy these days .
with festivals , exams and such . GOD .

yesterday , which is sunday ,
went to help mom out at sembawang ccc with mel .
motive ; stage decorations .
from 9 am to 2 pm .
headed home and went out again to sabby's house .
i had a tummy fulled time there . :)
lovely moments .

soon , met fiza in the bus . what a coincidence .
we decided to meet david as fiza need to pass his ' watermelon ' . HAH -.
& finally i really had to rush home as i had an event for the night to attend to .
it was damn funny show ! [ i laugh all night long ]

reach home at about 12++am
okay enough of yesterday and get back to today .

i woke up late today .
i really jump out of bed as it was 6.50 am .
a bad experience for the day .
i took my eng and malay paper 2 just now. it was easy . i think -.

exams end at 12.03 pm .
headed home and out again .
the regulars had COUNCELLING from my mom while waiting for me to get changed.
HAHA , stupid faces .

i had to go junction 8 alone today just to get my HP REPAIRED!
the screen crack or something . i really get pissed .

met amru soon after that and have a lil chat .
aww , miss that boy .

i had a non extreme time today while slacking .
some people just made me down .
"ade kawan baru , lupe kawan lama " FRIEND HOPPER .
FCUK -. i hate that kind of you~

i walk off and meet shahril at woodlands .
tired sia . but at least he make me smile .

i miss my big man .
meet me soon .

2009-10-10T09:22:00.000-07:00

Dino & nick .

my boys - .

otw .

nonet [otw to bugis ]

robek , teo , wong :)

im tired today .

basically ,

reporting to bugis to syaa 's to sembawang to home .

i was quite dissapointed by the regulars .

today theyre not complete .

so i had fiza , mel , syaa , irah , dino , adam , nick .

thank you .

im done -.

im lazy

2009-10-08T05:22:00.000-07:00

TODAY ; had social studies paper .[hard larh !]

then went to POH CHAN & slack .

went home and change .

and back to atong .

i went crazy to look for the curve ruler .

had MATHS paper tomorrow! FCUK-.

why do they create maths . . -____-"

i had no mood to tag today .

2009-10-07T05:07:00.000-07:00

life is like the waves .
full of ups & downs .

even i cant understand my own life
neither do you - right?

dad&car had an accident!
taxi + taxi = c r a s h ! .
kesian abah .

well , today i feel HORNY-.
haha crap. i tried the NAUGHTY G .
it was said that it can make us HORNY.
like what only - its NOTHING .
just plain-o water . -________-"

went to david's house with the regulars .
we watch a nice movie .
& i really make noise throughout.
it was about fighting thingy .

then went to atong .
chill for awhile - & went home .
HERE I AM , updating .

2009-10-06T09:45:00.000-07:00

happy anniversary.

i love you big man.

ALWAYS.

2009-10-05T03:42:00.000-07:00

introducing ; my blood sister , ain

ft. hakim

hakim ft ijad ; ignore cha

i j a d

h a k i m

my two lovely boys.

its hakim & ijad.

my sis's children

went to PONTIAN -.

beraya at my mum's side.

its sucj a bore la actually.

i pitied my grandpa.

today discharge at night go back hospital

P E R T A P I S

HARI RAYA EVENT

im so so so so so tired la today.

went to school halfway through.

sat ; pertapis event + jalan raya

sun; jb, PONTIAN

BIG man send me this msg;

hey ara , just dropping by to say hi.hope u've nt been naughty all this while yea?take gd care of urself and make everyone proud of u. ur a good girl n im sure you know that

replied ;

hey an . how are u now? im good . tk percaya tanye mama .

BIG man replied ;

haha.im fine , getting busier . ok , i believe. haha. i gt to get back to werk now.

you take care . (:

one word : E X C I T E D .

2009-10-02T00:22:00.000-07:00

it was just a day.

& i miss you.

whyy?whyy do i feel this way?

it really do hurt me alot.

i need you,but i guess ill have to wait.

insyallah, ill be waiting.

im as scared as you are.

it really disturbed me,even when i did my exams.

i still cant get over it,did you?

hope itll end soon .

its my eng&malay paper 1 today.

gosh~.

its very disturbing.

but well i just hope i did well.

emotional distress

2009-10-01T01:03:00.000-07:00

a good night= a bad night
bcoz its BOYFRIEND's 19TH BIRTHDAY,yaw~.
i love him to the fullest .HAH-.

but then, he made me DOWN, real down.
he wanted to take a BREAK!

reason:
he was too scared that hes not being a good boyfie.
hes busy with works and soon NS.& we seldom meet!
& i would change of heart.
i dont care how its gonna happen next.
ily & thats final this feeling wont change no matter what.
i never felt this love so strong in my previous relationships.
& i dont want it to jam this way.

please, dont leave me.

2009-09-30T00:07:00.000-07:00

for once i thought things will change,but it turns up the other way round
i guess im still a young girl in her eyes.

for once i never say sorry, I DID.
for once i run away,i NEVER
for once i talks back,now i dont! [patiently hearing.]
for once i slams the door, now i don't
for once i fight, i dont
for once i argue , i dont
for once i dont love her , now i DO!
doesnt she see the CHANGE?!

but whyy of the all things i did were ALWAYS wrong in her eyes?!
i feel dumb,unappreciated~.
but then , i still do love her. whyy cnt she see that!
if she thinks she's stress, im more than that!!
please realise that!
she always nag nag & nag thats all shes proffesion in!
please dont make me hate you.
people just cant change in a blink of an eye!
you cant compare mine & yours!
its different! if you dont like my friends, get to know them! DON'T judge them!
use your brain lah ! dun only nag! im angry sia when she talks about my friends!
she expects me to be around who is somehow perfect! like dont always go out,didnt smoke,no tattoos etc. but where can i find such people in this world?!
for me, i like my friends the way they are, at least they make me happier than the way she do!
i understand of you being worried bout my safety & such.
but dont control me! if i were to die at least let me live my life to the fullest!
i dont want to die in this situation
make me happy pls,someone?
pls dont make me cry anymore.

its been almost like 3 years for me not to enjoy like i used to be.
life been full of obstacles,let me breathe the air i longed for.
come on, im 16! get real!

ok cut,it made me more gain pressure.

i miss my boyfriend.
he's been so much BUSY with his working hours.
but i guess ill be meeting him soon.
its his birthday tomorrow.

im sick&tired of school.
so little time yet so much to do!
exams!exams!exams!
FCUK!

lastly,
ITS GIRLFRIEND BIRTHDAY!
alerr, 15 only. :p

babe,
make your live to the fullest!
enjoy it when you still have time.
dont think much about your problem it will just make your life shorter.
DON'T be like me. at least you have RAMLAN to care for you.
i hve nobody sia. im a loner eventhough i had a big family tree.
ive live in a tree of HATRED. i love you , girlfriend.
meet you soon :)

bf once said 'dont think that your problem is a big one,theres loads of others who are much more UNLUCKY' :)

hari raya trip part 2

2009-09-29T07:37:00.001-07:00

its the REGULAR 2nd raya outing.

suppose to go with dino & the gang

but simply something happen which i had to settle.

im sorry guys-.

i really do want to write a whole bunch of stories today.

but im soSOso TIRED!

update sooon :)

2009-09-28T05:43:00.000-07:00

my girlfriend ; FIZA BBY.

girlfriend,aqu shayank kau bnyk bnyk.

ill promise ill treasure you okeh?

don't leave me-.

gf , no matter what secrets are meant to be sealed.

hidup JANJI ROCK. lols

we made this promise;

first step, try to STOP smoking -.

i can, will she?

today, me , cha & fiza went to ahtong &mit the boys.

cha & the boys played frisbee.

after that, we went to chong pang [slack,eat]

we were laughing our heads off when magic appears.LOLs

i bought some new undies today :)

fiza were like WANTING to buy too.

funny girl.

well, my big FAT sister went to camp today & i was like so relieve!

shes so fat that i cant even breathe!

wth-,she's my BLOOD after all.

david joined DANCE CREW [ forget the name],

like finally he had something to do to enjoy his life with.

i miss my BIG MAN.

he's been busy with work lately.

wish could see him soon.

cepatlarh 1st oct 09!

sayang sayang selalu

2009-09-27T06:26:00.000-07:00

hari raya outing with the regulars;

-250909-

i love em'.

idk-.

these people really make my day.

but then,things appear to be the other way round.

different attitutudes-you see.

but then, its quite CUTE.

theyre bunch of lovely people.

i dont know how to describe our friendship.

it just happens.

i like to manja manja with my lovely people especially to my sweetest drug.

i really hope people wont judge me wrong.

i am who i am, just dont judge me by its cover.

im may be the sweetest girl,you know. :)

my sweetest DRUG; farhansalleh-.
we've been together for like just a few months and yet we've been through thick&thin together.
he's my faithful listener.
thank you,alot.