im losing a friend today .
well its for the better . ily , friend .
thanks for all the time we shared together .
loving every moment of it even though sometimes u really pissed me off .
may god bless you . ok readers , my friend aint dying or what .
we are just a perfect stranger now . although i know ill miss him .
i know i have to do this .
after school , slack at fiza bby crib .
love her to the fullest .
ok till here for now . :)
♥ goodbye , friend .
Thursday, October 29, 2009
♥
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
guess what , i got another chance of retaining again .
how i know ? well supposely i didnt turn up for school today .
but fiza called me around 9 in the morning saying that i had to report to school as the principle wanted to see us !! yes yes , the regulars . but it turn up to be a meeting for upcoming retainee as the school is giving us 2nd chance . we had to turn up for extended revision which last for 2 weeks ! that means , IM SUFFERING !! im not sure i cn make it , and i feel really helpless !!
8am to 5 pm , is it possible to study in such a long hour?!! its worst than normal school time !!
DISASTER sey for me . coz ive shut down my learning system soon after my last paper .
hmm , 2 weeks ehyy ... ill try my best la .. AMIN
slack at pho chan's with the regulars for awhile .
hmm , david finally got a girlfriend .. haha , good good .. finally :)
love her to the fullest kay david .
i really feel down when i think about my problem .
i did it , so i really need to solve it on my own or ill be in deep trouble . fuck
im having a flu now . yeah , sudden . the weather seems bad nowadays . :(
ok till here , buh-bye ...
how i know ? well supposely i didnt turn up for school today .
but fiza called me around 9 in the morning saying that i had to report to school as the principle wanted to see us !! yes yes , the regulars . but it turn up to be a meeting for upcoming retainee as the school is giving us 2nd chance . we had to turn up for extended revision which last for 2 weeks ! that means , IM SUFFERING !! im not sure i cn make it , and i feel really helpless !!
8am to 5 pm , is it possible to study in such a long hour?!! its worst than normal school time !!
DISASTER sey for me . coz ive shut down my learning system soon after my last paper .
hmm , 2 weeks ehyy ... ill try my best la .. AMIN
slack at pho chan's with the regulars for awhile .
hmm , david finally got a girlfriend .. haha , good good .. finally :)
love her to the fullest kay david .
i really feel down when i think about my problem .
i did it , so i really need to solve it on my own or ill be in deep trouble . fuck
im having a flu now . yeah , sudden . the weather seems bad nowadays . :(
ok till here , buh-bye ...
♥ Bills bills bills
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
firstly , im pissed .
cant the centre make my life happier?
ok here the story goes .
back when i was stuck in the centre , i was sick .
this nurse called asiah , took me to KKH .
yeah i just cnt get the stools out of me .
i know it may sounds disgusting coz the centre's food was horrible !!
ok continue on , i was placed in this room full of sick patients
not 5 but i think its like 20+ of them! i was put there for like less than a day .
they gave me medicine n ohh it works ! pain relief .
soon , a month later or so , a letter came by my house saying that i had to pay for the bills .
it didnt bother me as it was the centre responsiblity ! so yeah i continued on with my days
and i had received a letter from PINNACLE CREDIT SERVICES PTE LTD .
the same letter ,same content .i gave the letter to the centre and i ask bout it a few days later .
guess what , they say "everything settled " .
& yet i received the latest letter last saturday [i think]
& finally the centre really work this out . they fax everything plus the mfec card [a card full subsidised by mcys , i was told ] . but then they call me again saying it was rejected and wanted me to seek help from medical social sevices , wth . tolak balak sia .
dad was really angry . they should have told us earlier as dad's financial was not stable now due to his accident & lil brother hospital bills . haish . am i making the explaination long ? i seems so , & i know my english sucks . ok im bored .
yeah , yeah , yeah , yeah ..
i got tembel on my right eye . PAIN TAU~ !!
ohyar , finally i went to school today . Had I&E day [it was bored] . had to follow teachers rounding school n see n try out the things at the booth . it was fucking bored . but when recess is over i cabut for awhile doing manicure . HEH . i got scolding when AMBI found me . luckily i wasnt alone , Eliza was there too . same incident happen when i had done all the stations and went to the toilet , as soon as i went out , i saw none of my group members ! so i thought they had been realeased so i hurry my way up wanting to do the pedicure . but i saw them Q-ing at the parade sq , so i hurry down again . Eliza told me, AMBI complain to MRS indra bout my dissapearance throughout the day . i was pissed . thank you , im done with my post . GOODBYE :)
cant the centre make my life happier?
ok here the story goes .
back when i was stuck in the centre , i was sick .
this nurse called asiah , took me to KKH .
yeah i just cnt get the stools out of me .
i know it may sounds disgusting coz the centre's food was horrible !!
ok continue on , i was placed in this room full of sick patients
not 5 but i think its like 20+ of them! i was put there for like less than a day .
they gave me medicine n ohh it works ! pain relief .
soon , a month later or so , a letter came by my house saying that i had to pay for the bills .
it didnt bother me as it was the centre responsiblity ! so yeah i continued on with my days
and i had received a letter from PINNACLE CREDIT SERVICES PTE LTD .
the same letter ,same content .i gave the letter to the centre and i ask bout it a few days later .
guess what , they say "everything settled " .
& yet i received the latest letter last saturday [i think]
& finally the centre really work this out . they fax everything plus the mfec card [a card full subsidised by mcys , i was told ] . but then they call me again saying it was rejected and wanted me to seek help from medical social sevices , wth . tolak balak sia .
dad was really angry . they should have told us earlier as dad's financial was not stable now due to his accident & lil brother hospital bills . haish . am i making the explaination long ? i seems so , & i know my english sucks . ok im bored .
yeah , yeah , yeah , yeah ..
i got tembel on my right eye . PAIN TAU~ !!
ohyar , finally i went to school today . Had I&E day [it was bored] . had to follow teachers rounding school n see n try out the things at the booth . it was fucking bored . but when recess is over i cabut for awhile doing manicure . HEH . i got scolding when AMBI found me . luckily i wasnt alone , Eliza was there too . same incident happen when i had done all the stations and went to the toilet , as soon as i went out , i saw none of my group members ! so i thought they had been realeased so i hurry my way up wanting to do the pedicure . but i saw them Q-ing at the parade sq , so i hurry down again . Eliza told me, AMBI complain to MRS indra bout my dissapearance throughout the day . i was pissed . thank you , im done with my post . GOODBYE :)
♥
Sunday, October 25, 2009
candid-ly done . see the hunch! fugllyyness!
as the picture says ; S . M . I . L . Ewhat ever happens , things just have to move on .
i broke up with an this fugly early morning .
yeah , over the same issues again .
i cant afford to cry again & again . it really hurts me when the matter rose up .
so i just have to let it go . &yeah so he says;
"farah ,im not leaving you
im just leaving you for you to grow and experience life of ur own
i dun want to be someone who would stop you from experiencing life when the opportunity rises" . isnt it the same?no matter wht hes still there for me . ohh well , im just lazy to update anymore stories coz i know it will happen all over again .
GF , i miss you . come back soon . stop running .
ohh yar went to west coast park today .
tiring indeed ! ok , ill promise ill update soon .
♥ get well soon ,brother .
Monday, October 19, 2009
i spend my whole day taking after cha in the hospital . cha had lungs infection & dirty blood .
he had these DRIPS attached .kesiannyer ....
other than that , i was so bored that i took my own pic too . heh
will be meeting bf tmrw!! yeeaayy .
&finally this bigman finally gg to ns this 11thdec2009.!!!!
yeah,hes 19 now. i know-.
cnt wait till tmrw . :)
♥
Sunday, October 18, 2009
firstly , chat with this fugly nonet of mine .nak step cute jerr .
ouh yar , i was rotting at home today .so i did a few shots above .
i miss my big man .
cha went to the hospital this morning
due to HIGH fever .
i was such a pity to see a little boy in pain .
i really feel like crying whenever he cried .
hmm, get well soon my little brother .
and ohh , mum been crazyy of buying these zulian jewelleries this afternoon.
she spend about $200 just on that thing .
so , me & gemok went off to our way .
gemok wanted to buy a bag which was now commonly used .
& i , bought a pair of purplish everlast shoe !
well , it was supposed to be grey ,but then theres no size of mine! :(
ok till here , im tired .
i miss my girldfriend too .
♥
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
i dont need you anymore .
honestly , you ill-treat me .
i think youre better off with another people .
losing you does not make any different .
what a kind of friend i had ! duh .
met boyfriend today!
like fianally !! yeeaaaayyy!!!
& i met olive . its super cute . haha .
bby , ilysm . okeh ?
honestly , you ill-treat me .
i think youre better off with another people .
losing you does not make any different .
what a kind of friend i had ! duh .
webby with fiza & syaa .beautiful fuckers - .
theyre desperately for a KISS .
ps ; sunnguh tk betol .
met boyfriend today!
like fianally !! yeeaaaayyy!!!
& i met olive . its super cute . haha .
bby , ilysm . okeh ?
♥
frankly , i broke big man's trust .
trust of being good . im sorry for that .
we almost broke off because of the post .
and he scolded me for hiding things from him .
well , i thought by not telling he wont be mad like now .
he wont nag for nothing , its because he cared and dun want me to
become like one of those unwanted pest .
they will just die of the things the thought like 'SYURGA' . stupid .
i know for all this while, im just wasting my time .
the lepakings and stuffs . its like 'come on, kau mcm tkde life je '
HAHA-. but thats how i really feel .
but i did that coz i want to waste time .
being at home was such a bore . SWEAR .
like BABI , all i do was sleep , eat , lappy-ing ,and do abit of housechores . :P
and i do thanks the regulars for being there for me .
i realise now , mixing ard with them doesnt mean u must be one of them .
you can be close but know ur limits . have principles in life .
its not that im critisizing the regulars , just that i have to think whats best for me n my future .
i know im abit slow in the brain as i find it so hard to catch up with my studies .
i need guide . so , i was hoping that the regulars will think what they want to be in the future .
i really want them to be someone in life . ily guys no matter what .
dearest boyfriend ,
im sorry .
i cnt deny that ive been bad and i really made u mad at me .
i know u want the best n only the best out of me .
u want me to become someone useful .
i understand everybit of what ure trying to say .
i need you . always . but i know i cnt depend on you too much .
ilysm ,
trust of being good . im sorry for that .
we almost broke off because of the post .
and he scolded me for hiding things from him .
well , i thought by not telling he wont be mad like now .
he wont nag for nothing , its because he cared and dun want me to
become like one of those unwanted pest .
they will just die of the things the thought like 'SYURGA' . stupid .
i know for all this while, im just wasting my time .
the lepakings and stuffs . its like 'come on, kau mcm tkde life je '
HAHA-. but thats how i really feel .
but i did that coz i want to waste time .
being at home was such a bore . SWEAR .
like BABI , all i do was sleep , eat , lappy-ing ,and do abit of housechores . :P
and i do thanks the regulars for being there for me .
i realise now , mixing ard with them doesnt mean u must be one of them .
you can be close but know ur limits . have principles in life .
its not that im critisizing the regulars , just that i have to think whats best for me n my future .
i know im abit slow in the brain as i find it so hard to catch up with my studies .
i need guide . so , i was hoping that the regulars will think what they want to be in the future .
i really want them to be someone in life . ily guys no matter what .
dearest boyfriend ,
im sorry .
i cnt deny that ive been bad and i really made u mad at me .
i know u want the best n only the best out of me .
u want me to become someone useful .
i understand everybit of what ure trying to say .
i need you . always . but i know i cnt depend on you too much .
ilysm ,
♥
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
lemme do a little of self reflection .
you are so cheap!
how could you that behind of his back?!
you once told me you need love ,
but he gave you his trust although that he wasnt there .
you love him but as the same time you need lust .
but , he wasnt there .
so you yearn for love from your friends .
but what did you get ?
what happen in the end?
just look at your friendship ..
now? look at the sins youve done these days ,think .
well , you have to learn to be harsh . not to let people do what ever they like to you .
but i know , you cant . but persevere on . you can do it !
you are so cheap!
how could you that behind of his back?!
you once told me you need love ,
but he gave you his trust although that he wasnt there .
you love him but as the same time you need lust .
but , he wasnt there .
so you yearn for love from your friends .
but what did you get ?
what happen in the end?
just look at your friendship ..
now? look at the sins youve done these days ,think .
well , you have to learn to be harsh . not to let people do what ever they like to you .
but i know , you cant . but persevere on . you can do it !
♥ my busy days
Monday, October 12, 2009
hello hello .
i've been busy these days .
with festivals , exams and such . GOD .
yesterday , which is sunday ,
went to help mom out at sembawang ccc with mel .
motive ; stage decorations .
from 9 am to 2 pm .
headed home and went out again to sabby's house .
i had a tummy fulled time there . :)
lovely moments .
soon , met fiza in the bus . what a coincidence .
we decided to meet david as fiza need to pass his ' watermelon ' . HAH -.
& finally i really had to rush home as i had an event for the night to attend to .
it was damn funny show ! [ i laugh all night long ]
reach home at about 12++am
okay enough of yesterday and get back to today .
i woke up late today .
i really jump out of bed as it was 6.50 am .
a bad experience for the day .
i took my eng and malay paper 2 just now. it was easy . i think -.
exams end at 12.03 pm .
headed home and out again .
the regulars had COUNCELLING from my mom while waiting for me to get changed.
HAHA , stupid faces .
i had to go junction 8 alone today just to get my HP REPAIRED!
the screen crack or something . i really get pissed .
met amru soon after that and have a lil chat .
aww , miss that boy .
i had a non extreme time today while slacking .
some people just made me down .
"ade kawan baru , lupe kawan lama " FRIEND HOPPER .
FCUK -. i hate that kind of you~
i walk off and meet shahril at woodlands .
tired sia . but at least he make me smile .
i miss my big man .
meet me soon .
i've been busy these days .
with festivals , exams and such . GOD .
yesterday , which is sunday ,
went to help mom out at sembawang ccc with mel .
motive ; stage decorations .
from 9 am to 2 pm .
headed home and went out again to sabby's house .
i had a tummy fulled time there . :)
lovely moments .
soon , met fiza in the bus . what a coincidence .
we decided to meet david as fiza need to pass his ' watermelon ' . HAH -.
& finally i really had to rush home as i had an event for the night to attend to .
it was damn funny show ! [ i laugh all night long ]
reach home at about 12++am
okay enough of yesterday and get back to today .
i woke up late today .
i really jump out of bed as it was 6.50 am .
a bad experience for the day .
i took my eng and malay paper 2 just now. it was easy . i think -.
exams end at 12.03 pm .
headed home and out again .
the regulars had COUNCELLING from my mom while waiting for me to get changed.
HAHA , stupid faces .
i had to go junction 8 alone today just to get my HP REPAIRED!
the screen crack or something . i really get pissed .
met amru soon after that and have a lil chat .
aww , miss that boy .
i had a non extreme time today while slacking .
some people just made me down .
"ade kawan baru , lupe kawan lama " FRIEND HOPPER .
FCUK -. i hate that kind of you~
i walk off and meet shahril at woodlands .
tired sia . but at least he make me smile .
i miss my big man .
meet me soon .
♥
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Dino & nick .my boys - .
otw .
nonet [otw to bugis ]
robek , teo , wong :)im tired today .
basically ,
reporting to bugis to syaa 's to sembawang to home .
i was quite dissapointed by the regulars .
today theyre not complete .
so i had fiza , mel , syaa , irah , dino , adam , nick .
thank you .
im done -.
im lazy
♥
Thursday, October 8, 2009
TODAY ; had social studies paper .[hard larh !]then went to POH CHAN & slack .
went home and change .
and back to atong .
i went crazy to look for the curve ruler .
had MATHS paper tomorrow! FCUK-.
why do they create maths . . -____-"
i had no mood to tag today .
♥
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
life is like the waves .
full of ups & downs .
even i cant understand my own life
neither do you - right?
dad&car had an accident!
taxi + taxi = c r a s h ! .
kesian abah .
well , today i feel HORNY-.
haha crap. i tried the NAUGHTY G .
it was said that it can make us HORNY.
like what only - its NOTHING .
just plain-o water . -________-"
went to david's house with the regulars .
we watch a nice movie .
& i really make noise throughout.
it was about fighting thingy .
then went to atong .
chill for awhile - & went home .
HERE I AM , updating .
full of ups & downs .
even i cant understand my own life
neither do you - right?
dad&car had an accident!
taxi + taxi = c r a s h ! .
kesian abah .
well , today i feel HORNY-.
haha crap. i tried the NAUGHTY G .
it was said that it can make us HORNY.
like what only - its NOTHING .
just plain-o water . -________-"
went to david's house with the regulars .
we watch a nice movie .
& i really make noise throughout.
it was about fighting thingy .
then went to atong .
chill for awhile - & went home .
HERE I AM , updating .
♥
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
happy anniversary.i love you big man.
ALWAYS.
♥
Monday, October 5, 2009
introducing ; my blood sister , ain
ft. hakim
hakim ft ijad ; ignore cha
i j a d
h a k i m
my two lovely boys.
its hakim & ijad.
my sis's children
went to PONTIAN -.
beraya at my mum's side.
its sucj a bore la actually.
i pitied my grandpa.
today discharge at night go back hospital
P E R T A P I SHARI RAYA EVENT
im so so so so so tired la today.
went to school halfway through.
sat ; pertapis event + jalan raya
sun; jb, PONTIAN
BIG man send me this msg;
hey ara , just dropping by to say hi.hope u've nt been naughty all this while yea?take gd care of urself and make everyone proud of u. ur a good girl n im sure you know that
replied ;
replied ;
hey an . how are u now? im good . tk percaya tanye mama .
BIG man replied ;
haha.im fine , getting busier . ok , i believe. haha. i gt to get back to werk now.
you take care . (:
one word : E X C I T E D .
♥
Friday, October 2, 2009
it was just a day.
& i miss you.
whyy?whyy do i feel this way?
it really do hurt me alot.
i need you,but i guess ill have to wait.
insyallah, ill be waiting.
im as scared as you are.
it really disturbed me,even when i did my exams.
i still cant get over it,did you?
hope itll end soon .
its my eng&malay paper 1 today.
gosh~.
its very disturbing.
but well i just hope i did well.
♥ emotional distress
Thursday, October 1, 2009
a good night= a bad night
bcoz its BOYFRIEND's 19TH BIRTHDAY,yaw~.
i love him to the fullest .HAH-.
but then, he made me DOWN, real down.
he wanted to take a BREAK!
reason:
he was too scared that hes not being a good boyfie.
hes busy with works and soon NS.& we seldom meet!
& i would change of heart.
i dont care how its gonna happen next.
ily & thats final this feeling wont change no matter what.
i never felt this love so strong in my previous relationships.
& i dont want it to jam this way.
please, dont leave me.
bcoz its BOYFRIEND's 19TH BIRTHDAY,yaw~.
i love him to the fullest .HAH-.
but then, he made me DOWN, real down.
he wanted to take a BREAK!
reason:
he was too scared that hes not being a good boyfie.
hes busy with works and soon NS.& we seldom meet!
& i would change of heart.
i dont care how its gonna happen next.
ily & thats final this feeling wont change no matter what.
i never felt this love so strong in my previous relationships.
& i dont want it to jam this way.
please, dont leave me.
FARAHGHANIWONG <3