why is it always YOU i have to listen to ?
you always expect me to be someone who im not .
you dont even accept the way i am nor my children .
you've been telling your friends theyre yours and not mine .
the reason ? MALU -.
and do you know how hurtful it is ?
what a great performance !
i hate you , now . but i dont know tomorrow .
you treat me like a doll but no one will understand .
you lock me inside the house and prevent me from seeing my friends .
you know how humiliating it was ?
im 17 with 2 children & still this treatment i get .
what are you ?
when i ask why all the reason you say was
"youre not mature enough"
"theres too many influences out there,& i dont want the same thing happened again"
"you dont even know how to manage the house&time for your children"
"i & your father are the ones who spending for you and your babies "
"because of your friends you became like this"
&& yes this is VERY VERY HUMILIATING .
im pissed with every single word you said .
i hate you , hate you for controlling my life.
i felt like running away but who can i turn to ?
step father will always putting the blame on me if you shows attitude towards the whole family.
im really really DEPRESSED or should i say
EMOTIONAL DEPRESSED?
every problem i had will never ends .
i hate me life . but i guess ill have to wait .
im sorry earthlinks . i really do . but i cant do anything .
everythings just seems like killing me softly & slowly .
we will see what will happen in few yrs from now . maybe 1 or 2 ?
to new friends why bother making friends with me ? stop wasting your time .
im not gonna entertain you . atleast for now :(
ps: i think ill learn to be uncheerful -.
ni peot , my sayang .
my listening ear , my loverboy .
hahs~
FARAHGHANIWONG <3